i don't know what the hell i was so worried about. i've already rewritten the first chapter and started on the second of the connector using the rearranged old stuff. not much of what was originally written actually made it into the rewrite, just the essence. and i really love it.
i'm so close to finishing typing up the original. i'm not even going to use what i wrote originally for the ending, but instead use the rewrites i already have done that i created at the beginning of this editing process. less typing i have to do. and when i do typing for both of my jobs the less typing i have to do the better.
which is why i bought dragon, which i never use cuz my computer runs a little too slowly. oh well, it wasn't expensive and i'm sure one day i'll have a better computer.