I joined writing.com.
I wanted something else, besides author's den. Because I did not want to take my old teenage/early 20s writing down, but I want to post the Verse without it being attached to it directly to the older stories and whatnot.
A fresh start.
Though, it's sort of backwards. Author's den seems the more professional site, while writing.com is more social network-y. it seems the younger self should use this. but then again.
I'm dreaming often and in detail of the boy I loved in high school. the past few have even referenced the fact, me telling him that I've been dreaming about him at some point in our odd-normal dreamtime adventure.
Is it strange to think that I love him still. I mean I don't know him. I haven't seen him since graduation day. But my heart feels just as strongly connected to him, despite all these years as it feels to the only boy from my HS that I actually... dated? I don't know. I love him, whatever it was we did... and whatever it was that part of it hardly matters. Because we were friends and can still have a nothing but friendly relationship. I try to be just quiet enough, though, so his adorable girlfriend does not get it into her head to cut me.
Because I feel with these two boys, whether there was a romantic connection to them or not, I love them. They made an impact on me and my heart cannot forget them. The boy I loved, he cannot be so different from what he was... we don't change that much. So I do not doubt that my love of him in the past can translate through to still loving him to this day, whether I've shared two words with him in 11 years or not.
and the funny thing is...
I really don't have much of the same to say about the two guys who were actually my boyfriends...
I love that my husband was my friend first.